Random quote fr...

Random quote from a person who shall not be named: "It was always supposed to taste like vanilla milkshake, but it never did." (from Wednesday)

More dreams - ...

More dreams - at mom's house and I circle around the back and into an open door that leads to the kitchen. The house is bascially their current house but the kitchen is right off the garage, which has a back entrance i the dream. Lowell is making vreakfast. He burned one thing of muffins but there is another. The floor is slippery and there is another stove in a weird place. For some reason I hug Lowell. It feels almost like I am in the video game The Sims, and someone has clicked on me and told me to hug him. This doesn't solve everything but it seems to be an important part of the healing process.There are two clocks - one says 4am and one says 9 or 10. I have to go to school soon but I don't worry about it. The most important thing is taking care of my body, which means not stressing it out. Everything else can be cut some slack. The nI am at some sort of amusement park. I climb over this thing on which people are selling things. THen I see an older version of one of Walter's kids, Taylor, who in my dream is now a little boy instead of a girl. There is another guy with sunglasses following me around.

Lots of weird dr...

Lots of weird dreams. Going to a psychiatrist in some run down shack like building that in the dream I've visted with Elana. Keep trying to use the bathroom but people come in - George from Arista and someone else - Michael? Then I life up the seat and there's pee all over it. In retrospect, this part of the dream was caused by my body's fight between two instinctive urges: needing to pee in real life, and not wanting to piss the bed. I seemed to have an appointment after my mom. She was very sad. Then I was outside taking some sort of elevator thing which I called a conveyor with Elana. It was more like a big platform that went down one level and rotated 90 degrees. On my first attempt to get on, I nearly got stuck between the side and the roof. Luckilly it had some sort of safety device. Then I was back inside the building seeing my mom as a late teenaged girl on hippie tie dye bed sheets, all happy, and simultaneously seeing her unhappy side. I had to explain this to cool teenagers as me being normally happy go lucky but having some sort of access or tunnel in my head which led to a dark place. Obviously a reference to the pain in my head that leads to most of my negative thoughts. Then I had frightening thoughts about an imaginary scene from a horror movie about a kid being tortured by insanity. He was trapped inside a box that was a representation of a padded cell. All you could see was his hands trying to get out of the box through the fabric, and the box being put together of different wooden slats with padding and freaky insane hands coming out of the top of each slat. My psychiatrist tried to get our meeting started but I'm not sure if it ever did. This couple came in on their robotic horse which I was drawing and had some sort of precedence over me. That's all I remember for now.

Just got off th...

Just got off the phone with Connie...My Moses rendering is still at 29%. And my amazon.com order has just arrived - "When Things Start to Think" by Neil Gershenfeld. Ealrier I asked Kate if she would call the Kentucky printer and Nightlife to compare prices and turnaround time. In return I will redesign her business card. But I have to find where I wrote down the number for Nightlife. Anyway back to rendering....

I decided to d...

I decided to do the other side of the business card the easy way, but the client still liked it. My main cilent just called. He had Frank do the Halloween pass. He wants me to do a 3D Moses type thing with parting water for a 'miracle' pass...

This entry is ...

This entry is being written solely topiss off Adam, who instead of dressing up like a Mexican Dinner Table, decided *not* to spend Halloween with his favorite turtle.

Last night I dr...

Last night I dreamed that I went back to yoga class and nobody wanted me to be there. Today is Kate's wedding anniversary with Jeff. He'll be out of the military in 5 years so hopefully she won't ever have to move away. The deli boy made some conversation this morning but seemed crankier. Maybe because the Yankees won. I think I'll be rooting for the Mets just so I have better flirting time with Jordan... I'm almost done with breakfast. Not sure if I should finish the other side of the business card I'm supposed to design, or clean up my room. Still can;t get in touch with my main client about tonight's work.