Today has been a...

Today has been almost a total waste.. maybe I'll take a nap.

I decided...

I decided to put on a hat this morning because I discovered I still have, underneath my hair, a BRIGHT GREEN SCALP. Guess I need to shampoo a little longer. Won't worry about it til Wednesday though, since I might dress up again tommorow night if I find a Halloween party.

More strang...

More strange dreams... altho Iguess dreams are my definition strange. First, a sort of Dark City type dream, where I see people donig regular everyday stuff, then one starts to get suspicious, like he' snot doing what he's really supposed to be doing. Then *flash* some other guy who is mentally controlling the situtaion resets everyone's brain so they don't remember anything, and gives them new roles. Then a dream where I am protecting (despite my relative scrawniness) some woman from some nasty guy with an ax. I escape down the fire escape of an apartment building and run into a police station where he kills a policeman. I shout "officer down, officer down". Then I awaken.

Among other ...

Among other things, I had another high school anxiety dream, and I also got this vision of being in a romatnic reletionship. The guy had blonde hair and funky black glasses, and his name was Chirs (Christian?). I might have missed the deli this morning but for day lights savings. Still havent changed my clocks except for my car - but my computer updates itslef automatically. Went with Marie to Walmart just to get myself out of the house. There were some snowflakes falling, although nothing that stuck. What happened to the late Octobers of my youth which were relatively warm (warm enough to walk around at night with light sotumes and no coats)? I had some fries at Walmart, and bought some juice at Stop N Shop for the potluck Samhain. I ate some leftover Chinese before I left so that I wouldn't have to rely on there being food I could eat. I left at 5:30, but spaced out and forgot to turn onto the Sagitos so I was late (altho still in time for the ritual). Me and Donna were both allergic to something in the room. The ritual was downstairs like at the last coven care. I guess the coven is just too big to meet upstairs anymore. The upstairs did get used as a smoking lounge. Ducky was very glad that I showed up, saying had I not I would have gotten deshelled. I don't know what that means but it sounds painful. Amy with her blonde hair (altho long) and black glasses reminded me a little of Chris from my dream. SHe cleansed and called the cirlcle then guided us through a meditation to meet dead people or other benign entities through the thinning veil. We took a sort of elevator up through the chakras. The heart's green was mixed with pink which trew me off a little. I didn't see any dead people (and my head.pain made concentrating and visualization difficult) but I did get this strong blast of a vision. I saw a soret of wish bone shape which manifested in different ways - different things that all took the shape. A quater section of the earth's interior, a vagina, a wishbone, a woman's hair with a headband, etc. One of the cats was freaking out, fighting with another cat, and climbing all the way up the screen door. Afterwards, I asked Ducky to give me a Tarot reading with his nifty new Halloween deck. My present was a reversed 5 of cups - possibly my ignoring my problems. Then the hanged man - mulling things over. Temperance, my need to be patient and methodical. Heirophant for what I have to work with. DUcky said this was an authority figure - I should see a doctor. The past : 8 of wands. Something bad, I forget exactly, but in the past. Reversed empress - I am not being nurtured. Reversed strength (my fears). Reversed 4 of cups - acceptance of help from others. The final card is usually celebration but was reversed. But that can be changed if I take care of the situation. Francis expressed concern over my health and have me some affirmations. Amy said she would light a candle for me. Mark said I keep getting more and more beautiful. Sometimes I think this might be some sort of Dorian Gray thing, where the worse I feel inside, the better I look on the outside. Ducky liked my new mod hairdo. He thought I looked like Liam (pr is it Noel) Gallagher from Oasis. DUcky made these really cool cookies and also had everyone sign his petition against the 6 flags mock witch burning. S'all for now...

I sa...

I saw "The Contender" with my Mom and Momma today. I didn't think it would have a happy ending but it did. Then we went to Friendly's. Had a very cute waiter guy "Steven W". THere seems to be this trend of cute boys in the service industry. For some reason I felt especially lonely today. I know I probably won't find someone until I don't want someone, but I can't help it. Reid IMd me today looking for sex. But that''s not the kind of attention I seek. Where oh where is Sparrow? Then I watched Earth Final Conflict (not such a great show anymore), parts of Edward Scissorhands (a classic), Xena (the beginning was really bad, but it got pretty good, alth oI missed the end because I was toalking on the phone to Mary Ellen... I sort of told her abou;t the naughty video with the lookalike of Mike. I don't think she appreciated it.) and Voyager...Tommorow is the big Samhain celebration. Saw Ducky at Blockbuster (where the loiterers laughed at my alien cowboy costume in en Espa?ol) last night and assured him I would be at the ritual. Too bad its a serious ritual and *not* a costume party. Hopefully Tuesday I will find some occasion for whic to dress up. At least Buffy is a repeat...

Well the party las...

Well the party last night was a total bust - we showed up and Anna was having a fight with Micahel and refused to come if Michael was gonna be there. THe host was going to cancel the party if Anna didn't bring all her girlfriends. More details to come. Dreams last night... In the mall and get semi kidnapped with some guy as a hostage whole he robs a bank in the mall. I slip out just before he shows his gun, and make headway towards Marie and Elana and rush them on to the car. There I explain what happened. Then we are sneaking into people's houses at the Chandler estate, except in e dream they aren't disheveled and run down and abandoned. Then I am very stressed because I living back at home and going to school, what seems to be high school (Mrs. Buchwalderteaching me math?), and diong very poorly. I seem to have enough money though, from some kind of part time job. Then Inside the dream I semi wake up and realize I still live here.

The DMV...

The DMV is insane. Last year I let my auto insurance laspse for two weeks and they suspended my license (12/20/00). I sent them proof of current insurance twice but they ignored it. So I've been driving around with valid insurance but a suspended license for a year.So last month my auto insurance came up for renewal and I renewed it. Today I get two identical notices from the DMV saying my license has been restored do to acceptable proof of current insurance. DMV is insane!